Brandon

by Breanne M. Loffredi, age 15, from US

Brandon the liar, Brandon the cheat.
I loved him but he didn't love my,
he told me I was 100x better than anyone else
"I think he's my God send " I told myself.
I was wrong, that's usually how it went,
I just couldn't believe how much time we spent, talking from 9 till 12 every night,
dreaming of another time we might,
meet at church, or maybe LQ,
but never school cuz he went to Lanse Cruse.
One Wednesday night, the 12th to be exact,
we went to church but he didn't act,
as if he had been planning to let me down,
we as always, joked around.
Until I got home, bout 9 or so,
he called me, as usual, on the phone.
"I don't think the relationships working" he said
than my whole body ached with dread.
I said "what? What do you mean?"
he said "there's no use in being, boyfriend and girlfriend, if nothing has changed"
I thought for him to dump me I must be deranged,
there's nothing else it could be.
than he said it, the one thing i feared,
"i still want to be friends"
he used the oldest line in the book,
i can't imagine being able to look,
him in the face and say those three little
words that are the biggest lies I've ever told.
"i love you", no, that's not it
because you see, i really did.
"you meant nothing" that hits the spot,
you have the power to do what ever you want.
to break promises, to lie, to create false hopes and dreams, congratulations, you got A's in all three.
But I won't let you get under my skin,
God has a plan that you're not in.
I have a friend, a best one in fact,
with her help and God's I'll get back on track.
so God bless you in whatever you may do,
learn from your mistakes, as I will do.
I know that the famous quote is true,
"Better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all"
because no matter what,
loving myself can heal anything.